today i woke up early in the morning and it was around 6:50 witch you can say i didn't sleep at all i have hard time sleeping. Well i went to court it was okay until when we came back to our house. My mom told me that I'm not going back to Arizona and it was so sad for me that because it was the so surprising fast and i was so sad. i cryed today whole day and i don't know how long it will go on. it was really sad because i want to go back but i cant. My parents have papers says they in charge of me even though I'm 18 it doesn't matter they in charge off me they have papers said that they in charge of me. As you know my name is Mari i been though alot okay i born in Russia. i came here about six years ago. While i been here i been in three families and i been in two other families since i left my family. I been though in my life as you know and i made bad choices like i got pregnant right now by some idiot guy i though he was right for me. I'm not going to say his name because i don't want to put him here and i don't want some people know who he is. I'm going to have child soon its a boy witch I'm going to name him Tyrees Jordan bead. My parents scared that i will make bad choices and i understand i know i already made so much but you know I'm trying to do my best. Some day I'm going to get apartment when my baby at least five or maybe year old. My parents going to help me. i have job now to and trust me its not so good because i have mean manger and i don't like working there but as you know I'm going to have baby its money and i love money. I guess i just want to tel you that today was not really god day for me and I'm going to go though allot this days to get to use to it. i love my friends like Asia and her whole family. Jessica she is too and her family too. i love my family in Arizona. i have other friends its to many to tell about them witch will do that probably in the next post.